Second Week, Weight Loss - 0.8 pounds. Blech. Much lower than the first week, which was expected. I like to lose at least a pound a week, but a loss is a loss, no?

The "Beyond" part - Where the heck did my willpower go this weekend? Right out the window... and took my motivation with it. We were out of town Friday through Sunday. On Friday night at my Grandfather's house, dinner was served. Baked chicken with steamed veggies and water would have been ideal. Instead it was Pizza from "The Greasiest Pizza Place in Hacienda Heights, Ca.", with salad covered in cheese, croutons and REGULAR (gasp!) Ranch dressing, plus Ruffles with Ranch and tortilla chips with salsa on the side.

Saturday would be better!! Until the person we were staying with (my sister) brought home Enteman's donuts and donut holes for breakfast. She always does this as a treat for my children whenever we stay there.. but that's where the picture gets fuzzy for me sometimes..... it's supposed to be for the children.  We had our usual lunch at Mcd's as we always do with my Aunt on Saturday's when we're back at home. I did well, a side salad with light dressing, a snack wrap and a Diet Coke.  Then our little playdate with my cousins started to run a longer than expected and I got hungry.... again.  I ate two chocolate chip cookies - BAD CHRISTINA!  For dinner was a kidless meal at no place other than The Cheesecake Factory!  YUMMY.  I knew they had "Weight Management Salads", but in honor of me feeling bad for missing the MNO at Heather's, I opted for a Pineapple Mojito, an Avocado Egg Roll, a Tex Mex Egg Roll, the Baja Chicken Tacos with Avocado Cream (bad word when dieting!) sauce which included rice and beans, a side salad and a few bites of my sister's Spicy Cashew Chicken and my other sister's Madeira Chicken. (feeling hungry right now) .. Oh.. and don't forget the bread baskets. 

Okay - so Sunday was a BBQ - GRILLED food, can't be too bad right? Well, for those who know me well enough (which I don't think is anyone on this site ) since I'm not a big meat eater, grilled meat means pretty much nothing to me.  I want the sides. So my meal consisted of jalapeno cheese bread, a southwest veggie salad, breadsticks with red peper sauce (anyone seeing a theme here with bread?) some cheese, salad with non-diet dressing on it, potato salad.. I could go on, but I won't. I feel guilty enough as it is.  I wasn't planning on having dessert (not big on sweets) but my Stepmom brought me an already cut (and giant) piece of chocolate coffee cake, and heck.. Father's Day only comes once a year, right? GRRRRR.  Maybe she's trying to sabotage me.. yah .. that's it ;)

So Monday was my new start.. but it just didn't happen. I was tempted by brownies at the park playdate, Doritos at lunch .. and unfortunately cooking didn't happen last night so it was Del Taco for dinner, where I didn't hold back.  Today I actually did really well, until my husband suggested McDonald's for dessert. Will it ever end??? As terrible as I've been this week, I am going to attend my Weight Watchers meeting this Friday and face the music.  If I gained anything less than two pounds, it will have been a miracle from God Himself.

Wow. What a novel. Guess I'm having a bit of "diet guilt" tonight.  Tomorrow is a new day and I'm starting over (once again). Please send some "Make Christina's appetite tiny" waves over my way for the next few days.