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Blue Baby Fever
I've got Blue Baby Fever! Here's the scoop: We are trying for our second child and we need to conceive by the end of May or wait until next year. So it is April or May or February of 09! I really want our children to be close in age and so it depresses me to think I might have to wait until February 2009! Yet, I am TERRIFIED of getting pregnant again. I had an awful experience with 24/7 "morning" sickness for about the first 20 weeks with Katelyn. And now that Katelyn is fully exploring "Terrible Two" behavior and it's full-swing wedding season I cannot help but feel apprehensive about it. I was so sick with Katelyn that I left a permanent impression on the couch. Every time I got up the room spun so much I felt like I was walking through a spinning tunnel in Hell (really I am not being overly dramatic). Thoughts like, "How will I care for Katelyn?" and "What if it's worse this time?!" plague my mind... So I've got baby fever with a blue twist. And it's so complicated with our business!
I'll keep you all posted on what happens...
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posted by
bcolaw
on Apr 17, 2008 at 11:23 PM
I wanted my children to be close, too, but God had other plans. I do hope you get pregnant quickly, but remember if His timeline is different, it will still be perfect! I look back now and think I was crazy to want them close together. And when David and Sarah were only 2 years apart, I thought I was going to die!!! Lots of moms do very well with stairstep kids, but I don't know that I would have.
So sorry about the morning sickness - I hope it's not so bad this time. If it is, we will help with Katelyn or whatever else you need. Did I tell you that David lived in a portable crib with his pacifier and Sesame Street for three months after I found out I was pregnant with Sarah? He did okay - definitely not ideal, but there was no choice!
posted by
Rhiannon
on Apr 17, 2008 at 11:36 PM
Thanks Becky! You are so awesome! Knowing I have such great friends from church who are so willing to help is such a blessing. I know that God's in control, but I am human and I get worried easily. The hard thing about waiting almost another year is that if we have four that puts me at having 3 of the 4 over the age of 31. That's not old. But ideally I wanted to be done by 35 with at least 2 years apart each child. And our circumstances with only a few open months a year to conceive aren't likely to change. But yes, this is alllllll in God's hands, thankfully. I might never conceive again and that's okay. And I might get pregnant in August and have a baby at our BUSIEST time of year and that will be okay too. It's just hard when it's so complicated. I really like simplicity in everything, but usually find myself wrapped up in complexity. :)
posted by
Christina
on Apr 18, 2008 at 07:10 AM
I have to agree Becky. I always said I wanted my children to each be two years apart. They ended up each being "about" 2 1/2 years apart and I just cringe every time I think it would have been like to have them ANY closer.. even by a few weeks! posted by
Jason
on Apr 18, 2008 at 12:20 PM
Wow! That's a tight timetable to work around wedding season! Good luck--and good luck on not being as sick this time around (knock on wood)--my wife had morning sickness so bad that she lost weight in the first trimester. posted by
Rhiannon
on Apr 18, 2008 at 01:36 PM
Yeah, it's really hard to work around the time-table of wedding season. We could choose not to, but it's hard to give up two months of salary (because you never know when a baby will arrive since it's like a due--date of 37-42 weeks-ish!). I too lost weight. I was down 14lbs by about the start of my 5th month! (But I've heard of much worse, like poor Lisa's story!).
posted by
bushelandapeck
on Apr 18, 2008 at 06:14 PM
Sounds like you need a break/rest from thinking and planning, so my advice is(not that you asked for it) go get a pedicure and massage, and then snuggle up with the hubby for an evening after the little one is asleep. Yes, and certainly keep us posted. posted by
pelly
on Apr 19, 2008 at 06:55 PM
And you never know where that relaxing will take you..... I'm just saying. :)
I get baby fever about once every few months & I have to be reminded, "someday, but not this day." Even though I KNOW that's wisdom, baby fever speaks loudly sometimes. BOO. posted by
Rhiannon
on Apr 21, 2008 at 09:40 AM
Relaxing is always good. posted by
LisaW
on Apr 21, 2008 at 01:20 PM
Oh gosh! I'm already afraid of a second pregnancy. I can't imagine caring for a child and being as sick as I've been (I lost 14% of my pre-pregnancy body weight). My husband really wants us to have at least two kids, but I don't think there is any way I'd do this again. Don't get me wrong, I know it will be worth it and is worth it... I just don't think I could possibly do it again and be this sick. So I'm looking into international adoption at this point. I think we're even going to start a savings account adoption fund for it. My SIL and her husband adopted a beautiful 8 month old girl from Taiwan last year. She fits so well into their family, I can't even remember it being any different. posted by
Rhiannon
on Apr 21, 2008 at 02:51 PM
Lisa, I was in the exact same frame of mind as you at this point in my pregnancy with Katelyn. And you may never want another one (via pregnancy!). Good thing you don't have to decide now. And adoption is WONDERFUL!!! I would love to adopt a few kids. I used to want to have 10. LOL So if we have 3-or-4 naturally ours and adopt a few we'd have quite the handfull. Watch me stop at two! lol -Rhiannon
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