I sit here and think of my grandmother she was always mama that is what we all called her. She was the glue in this family! She was a women before her time she tested her faith and left a man and a country that had betrayed her. She got a job sewing at May co. and put herself and two daughters through school at a time when being a single mother was almost unheard of!

She went on to become a teacher always the one who cared about her students and put them first. She would tutor them was at one school almost 35 years! And was always seeing a student who loved her dearly. "Hello Mrs Felder I am so and so" I would see this over and over. She made every uniform and dress I wore before age 15. Gave me a love of books I have to this day. Was funny sweet and kind. She will be missed.

RIP mama.

So today was the first swim class with his new teacher his old one as well so Anthony could adjust. It went great! She is so nice and calm with him! He is growing in so many ways.

I am glad that they understand him and help him make transitions easier on him, we could have waited 'till the team started and had him just go with the flow but this is better he will get to know Tessa and then be on the team! My sweet Aspie on a team! Who would have thought a year ago he would be able to do this? Sometimes swim class is so much more!

So today was my anniversary and we had no babysitter so we took Anthony with us to dinner, and when I told DH that he said that was ok Anthony will be with us forever. 

I know he meant it as a joke but sometimes this whole Aspegers thing has be down and wondering if Anthony will ever leave the nest. He sleeps with me 90% of the time and while I would love for him to go to college one day I wonder just what the future will bring.

So today was a big one for Anthony a play date no mom. I could have just left but Jasmine saw I needed to see him be ok without me. He was fine right at home instantly! Yet part of me wanted him to cry or fuss not barley say goodbye! This is so good for him! He has a friend! Well more then one! All he keeps going on about is this being his first real birthday party cause he will have friends! YEAH! 

I worry about him Aspeger's is hard on him but this is such a big milestone that others will comes too!  I CAN SEE THE LIGHT!

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I want to imagine a world where when I take my child into a store his twirling is not seen as bad but cute! Yes I am aware he looks normal! Sorry about that I will run right out and scar him up for ya! Where no one asks me to leave and lets the child age two who is tearing up the store to stay and just calm down! My son thinks he is an airplane today what is wrong with that?

Why is it that autism has no face? No sorry Aspergers is not the new thing for bad kids its the hope for good kids!

My child is normal for him! What if Thomas Edison's mom had thought yes he is stupid? Well we would be in the dark! 

I will not sit in the dark I will not stay at home! And I am there for all kids with Aspergers! I will be the voice loud and clear!