http://www.raisingbakersfield.com/home/Blog/luvnmybubby/24816 my first wedding anniversary is may 18th....&nbsp; in this past year, since i have been married, i have seen my husband once, for 11 days. Now&nbsp; he is deployed and i won't be seeing him again until march of next year.&nbsp; it's incredibly hard. i often feel very depressed and i cry a lot.&nbsp; i try not to for fear it might counteract all the hapiness my son feels. its impossible, it seems like every song reminds me of him, every commerical is about the army. its ridiculous. now don't get me wrong, i am probably one of the strongest women you will ever meet.&nbsp; I have dealt with some STUFF in my life, but this takes the cake.&nbsp; my husband is the most awesome man i have ever met, he takes care of me and our son. he has given me the opportunity to stay home with aidan and i have a nice, comfortable place for us to&nbsp; live and &nbsp;a nice truck.&nbsp; Aidan wants for nothing, he has more crap than most 5 year olds.&nbsp; this makes me miss my husband even more.&nbsp; now i am terrified i might never see him again, last time he was in iraq he nearly lost his life, he almost didn't come back to me last time. it scares the hell out of me.&nbsp; but i keep truckin.&nbsp; if i didn't have my lil boy to give me lovin i don't know what i would do.&nbsp; nothin makes me feel better then when he sees im upset and races over to me and leaps into my lap and plants a big slobbery kiss on me.&nbsp; it makes me forget, for a lil while anyway, how much i miss my husband. my first wedding anniversary is may 18th....&nbsp; in this past year, since i have been married, i have seen my husband once, for 11 days. Now&nbsp; he is deployed and i won't be seeing him again until march of next year.&nbsp; it's incredibly hard. i often feel very depressed and i cry a lot.&nbsp; i try not to for fear it might counteract all the hapiness my son feels. its impossible, it seems like every song reminds me of him, every commerical is about the army. its ridiculous. now don't get me wrong, i am probably one of the strongest women you will ever meet.&nbsp; I have dealt with some STUFF in my life, but this takes the cake.&nbsp; my husband is the most awesome man i have ever met, he takes care of me and our son. he has given me the opportunity to stay home with aidan and i have a nice, comfortable place for us to&nbsp; live and &nbsp;a nice truck.&nbsp; Aidan wants for nothing, he has more crap than most 5 year olds.&nbsp; this makes me miss my husband even more.&nbsp; now i am terrified i might never see him again, last time he was in iraq he nearly lost his life, he almost didn't come back to me last time. it scares the hell out of me.&nbsp; but i keep truckin.&nbsp; if i didn't have my lil boy to give me lovin i don't know what i would do.&nbsp; nothin makes me feel better then when he sees im upset and races over to me and leaps into my lap and plants a big slobbery kiss on me.&nbsp; it makes me forget, for a lil while anyway, how much i miss my husband. en-us <p>&nbsp;Well I feel that any words I could say would be totally inadequate, but we'll pray for you and the safety of your husband.&nbsp; We appreciate&nbsp; his service and the sacrifice he is making in time away from his family.&nbsp; God bless you guys!</p> http://www.raisingbakersfield.com/home/Blog/luvnmybubby/24816/#c_224764 http://www.raisingbakersfield.com/home/Blog/luvnmybubby/24816/#c_224764 <p>&nbsp;Well I feel that any words I could say would be totally inadequate, but we'll pray for you and the safety of your husband.&nbsp; We appreciate&nbsp; his service and the sacrifice he is making in time away from his family.&nbsp; God bless you guys!</p> <p>&nbsp;You, your husband, and your family are in our thoughts.</p> <br /> http://www.raisingbakersfield.com/home/Blog/luvnmybubby/24816/#c_225293 http://www.raisingbakersfield.com/home/Blog/luvnmybubby/24816/#c_225293 <p>&nbsp;You, your husband, and your family are in our thoughts.</p> <br />